i really love joy division. and there's something about this video...I feel like this is what my memories are like. something like those moments of still images that pass in & through your thoughts. sometimes they are vague & sometimes in they're in detail...but usually there's some sort of fluidity to it how they seem to enter your thoughts. and they move like smoke. how smoke enters a room quietly. And just as thoughts cross your mind, they dissipate...onto another some other thought. there's a strange beauty to that. like some sort of choreographed chaos.

that's kind of where my brain would be categorized these days. i know there's some sort of order going on, but i'm only getting small pieces of it. things don't really make sense, but it will come to me at some point...i hope :)