all die young








i'm beginning to wonder if things even have a right place or time. there are so many different factors with so few constants to depend on - so it feels like we end up spending most of our lives reacting to everything. i guess we can count on a few things - like waking up in the morning and then going to sleep in the evening. but in between wake & sleep - the day presents a lot of unexpected things. so it's aaalmost like we wake up each day, and God puts a random record on. Then at the same he time releases a pack of wolves into our room :D So, we learn to keep time & move the way that song moves - but the challenge is doubled by learning how to outsmart the wolves. theeeeen we wake up the next day & do it all over again. someone's really got to teach those wolves to dance

fear keeps me moving

When I was young, I remember the adrenaline before the switch of the light. The darkness allowed for my imagination to run wild. I planned out conditions to handle the monsters my imagination would create & eventually the switch of the light would make the fear go away.

And now years have passed - vampires & alligators under the bed are less of a concern, but i've noticed imagination still seems to influence fear. as much as i hate them, i think those fears are inevitable. i'm not really worried though. i've still got a plan, and those vampires are going down.





the day will break





“Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take awhile. It’s normal to take awhile. You’ve just gotta fight your way through.” -IG

all the other kids








Time moves forward causing people to move & adapt because of so many changing variables. It makes it difficult to know what we're supposed to do next - or determine if there's even a right time for anything. My older brother once told me "you've just got to do things and you'll figure it out as you go." if we are always waiting for "right time" - when we have everything figured out - we don't allow for chance to happen. i guess a lot of us waste time thinking of the perfect plan. The thing is...even if you have no idea what you're doing, at least you're doing something. I really think there's a beauty to making mistakes & figuring something out in the process. Maybe we need to keep in mind that everything's going to be ok.

cause it will be. it's all going to work out...i promise